2 posts tagged “family”

What are you most grateful for in your life right now?
Submitted by Becca-Pink.

For my parents who are financing my year abroad, my dream to live in Paris. Who believe in me and my passions. Who hide their fear for me being in a foreign country, living alone. Who hide their fear for my future in film. I know they're scared for me. I know they're scared, but they hide it really well because they don't want me to know, to be afraid and lose focus. I want to succeed for them. I want to pay them back, pay it all back. But...they tell me it's not necessary. That they do this because I'm their daughter, and they love me.

I'm so unbelievably blessed to have them. I love them so much and I tell them that whenever they're on the phone.

Wow, I've never cried this hard since the Keaton epiphany.

I can't stop thinking about the future. Like, what am I going to do when I get back to California? This whole study abroad thing has just become this hiatus from school/normal life/the familiar. And I'm glad I had it, am having this "break." But once I get back home, I have to start up again. You know, start actually doing things. Not that I'm not doing things here. But, if anything, this past year in Paris has been like a vacation. And I love it, but it's going to come to an end like all vacations. There's a lot to accomplish when I get back.

• Start filming mockumentary for Kuya's wedding: This might involve at least 2 weeks of shooting in July and a couple days in August.
• Get top wisdom teeth removed: I can feel them coming already and messing up my top row of teeth. Crap. I have this thing about my teeth. This can also ruin my shooting schedule. We'll see.
• Clean: A lot of things. Just get rid of things that I don't need anymore. Can do without it. Living here has taught me to be more simple, live with simplicity. I'm also going to clean the hard drive and possible get another one.

• Bike: I'm going to finish what I started last summer. The Spartan. That was the fixed gear project I told you about. I bought a blue bike called "Spartan" on the head tube. I was going to turn it into a fixed gear beast as an homage to the film 300.
• School stuff: Just figure out what I'm going to do my last year of school. Should I get the French degree? Do I even deserve it? Because I don't feel like I do. I don't even want to call myself a French major.
  

I think that's good for now. That's a lot, actually. Shouldn't overload. If I can get all these things done throughout the summer, then I'll be happy.