5 posts tagged “life”
How do you feel about your birthday? Do you look forward to it and remind all your friends, or do you dread it and try to keep it a secret?
Blurg. Total dread. I never really want to celebrate it. My birthday always depresses me 'cuz I look back on all the things I haven't done and now I'm a year older. It's this twice yearly sad state that always comes around like the Nordstrom twice yearly sale. It comes on my birthday and around Christmas. Christmas because I'm never really happy around Christmas and New Year's.
I'll be spending my birthday in Paris this year. We'll see how it goes.
I can't stop thinking about the future. Like, what am I going to do when I get back to California? This whole study abroad thing has just become this hiatus from school/normal life/the familiar. And I'm glad I had it, am having this "break." But once I get back home, I have to start up again. You know, start actually doing things. Not that I'm not doing things here. But, if anything, this past year in Paris has been like a vacation. And I love it, but it's going to come to an end like all vacations. There's a lot to accomplish when I get back.
- Start filming mockumentary for Kuya's wedding: This might involve at least 2 weeks of shooting in July and a couple days in August.
- Get top wisdom teeth removed: I can feel them coming already and messing up my top row of teeth. Crap. I have this thing about my teeth. This can also ruin my shooting schedule. We'll see.
- Clean: A lot of things. Just get rid of things that I don't need anymore. Can do without it. Living here has taught me to be more simple, live with simplicity. I'm also going to clean the hard drive and possible get another one.
- Bike: I'm going to finish what I started last summer. The Spartan. That was the fixed gear project I told you about. I bought a blue bike called "Spartan" on the head tube. I was going to turn it into a fixed gear beast as an homage to the film 300.
- School stuff: Just figure out what I'm going to do my last year of school. Should I get the French degree? Do I even deserve it? Because I don't feel like I do. I don't even want to call myself a French major.
I think that's good for now. That's a lot, actually. Shouldn't overload. If I can get all these things done throughout the summer, then I'll be happy.
I made the tastiest, loveliest BLT yesterday. Did not take a picture though. Rats. Oh well. I don't think I'll ever make another one again as it makes my tiny studio smell like a Denny's even with the blower on and my windows wide open. Used a baguette which made the sandwich a bit crunchier than I would have liked, but it was still good.
I learned that he gained almost 100 pounds of muscle to play Batman. That's just so amazing to me. Such dedication. And all this after losing almost 60 pounds to play the insomniac in The Machinist. He's just amazingly insane. I don't want to go to the extremes, just lose 15 pounds and gain enough muscle to be able to battle zombie attacks. It's just that...if Christian Bale can do it, I know I can. I know I can lose 15 pounds by June. It's going to be like a game. I pretend I'm an actor, and I have to lose weight and gain some muscle for a role.How about Batgirl? If I don't meet the deadline, then the part goes to some other actress. But they want me because I'm amazing, and Chris Nolan likes me, and Christian Bale expressed interest in working with me.
I can see it now...me and Christian Bale training together, working out together, and then talking over berry protein shakes after a 3 mile run in the Hollywood Hills. Okay..I think I've taken this far enough.
So the reason behind the BLT was...that was sort of my last hurrah. Yeah, no more cured meats for me. I want to eat better and be fit and take care of myself. Thanks Christian Bale for the inspiration.
I'm starting to really like Vox. I like the whole audio, videos, books, collections deal because it allows me to record what I've been listening to, watching, and reading while being in Paris. And that's important to me. Lately, I've become obsessed with recording everything I've been doing here. Not so much crossing off lists of things, but just listing things I did.
Anyway...keep it up Vox!
What are your rituals or traditions for starting off a new year?
I write in my journal, usually reflecting on what I wrote in my journal the year before on New Year's. I look over my resolutions and see if they're really plausible. I clean and re-organize, throw away old things.
